Of Apologies and an Eternal Love Story Further Immortalized

Apologies first: Sorry to you that I haven't posted anything else since Sunday because my grandmother chose to stay on that isolated town without internet access rather than spending the rest of our vacation with my cousins here in the city. I am just sooooo hooked in to writing this blog that it bothers my conscience all the time that I didn't write anything for the past how-many days. At least, I am still on the schedule and it is still Week Number 1 so I could catch up with my everlasting vow to make this blog a success.

SO HERE IS NOW THE MAIN COURSE

It is Week 1 and Movie Number 2. Romeo + Juliet (1996) is one of the most creative movie I have ever saw. Having these classical script from William Shakespeare's play of the same title, it is refreshing to see this modernized movie after years of seeing the script staged with those elaborate and flamboyant costumes. how there costumes where and especially seeing the nice body of Benvolio and the hot boyish body of Romeo.....ooh ooh, sizzling. "(Okay, I'll stop talking hotness here, it is getting cheesy).

The classic love story of this two couple which started as love at first sight never fails to bring tears to my eyes. However, this film was astoundingly amazing because instead of sticking to the conventions set by the script of Shakespeare, this movie has done a positive make-over for the entire story. While retaining the traditional dialogue of the script, the movie seamlessly and naturally fits itself to the revised and modernized adaptation. Thus, having instead the original family feud between the house of Montague and the house of Capulet, the film made it a corporate war between the feuding families which didn't exactly terrorize the original storyline. As an example for those who haven't seen the movie yet, here is the legendary balcony scene from the movie:

Starring Leonardo di Caprio and Claire Danes as the juvenile lovers, the acting was as superb as the novel characterization of the dramatis personae. No one could ever predict that Lady Capulet could wear a very sexy Cleopatra-inspired costume and Mercutio cross-dressed during the Capulet's party. No wonder that this movie earned several awards for the creativity it exhibits.

Overall, the movie makes the very difficult Shakespearean vocabulary easier to understand and lets my generation appreciate the play with such ease. I do hope that many producers would modernize other Shakesperean plays as much as this movie has been a success.

PS. There is a new trending topic in Twitter that is just running five weeks. It is also about a modernized Romeo and Juliet. If you are reading right now, try to log-on to your twitter account and follow Romeo and Juliet. http://www.suchtweetsorrow.com/

Julie and Julia (Again)

Well, this is not really "again", I just made a reference from my first post in this blog.

It is my first week to my new devotion and actually, I did not made any plans to write this blog until I watched Julie and Julia (2009) few days ago. I know it will be redundant to say (my apologies) that this movie had inspired me to do this blog and now, I am trying to follow Julie Powell's tract: WRITE.

This movie is more than just about cooking and baking and writing. This movie is about Love and Passion towards life. This movie made me wonder what life has to offer me and what I am passionate about. (Well, I would not want to be an existentialist again and I am saving my life-is-a-bitch ranting to my other blog because that will bore you). Julia and Julie are passionate about their cooking that that became there life. This movie taught us that passion is the antecedent of life. And not just life, but also the greatest joy of being in love- not just with someone, but with life itself.

The movie was great. It made me laugh at the unusual voice of Julia (it is soo ipit and it made me remembered the voice of Felicity Huffman in Transamerica---ooh I love to write about that) and the way she makes up for her mistakes in cooking. It also made me as frustrated when Julie overslept and find her Boeuf Bourguignon burnt. It is a mixture of all the emotions and the aggregate of these emotions makes you to commit to something and achieve something in life. Thus as inspirational as it is, it makes us do something in life.

In some funny way, I felt kinda awkward to Amy Adams because she is far beyond the Giselle I watched on Enchanted (2007) when I first saw her. You can see a great difference between her portrayal of the two characters which makes her a very good actress. Moreover, Meryl Streep is as astounding as she is as she portray Julie with that unusual voice and awkward manner in the "high-fashioned, well-groomed" streets of Paris (no wonder she won a Golden Globe and an Oscar nomination for Best Actress).

Needless to say, Julie and Julia is one of the greatest movies the world has seen. As it is work on the development of a certain passion to propel one person, it makes us realize that in life, hardships come and go but with enough passion and strength, we could have anything that we wanted on the right time and on the right situation.

PS: I will follow Julie Powell to her site and I would love to take correspondence with her!

Whew! Hard!

It is hard having a life without a certain goal-- when you had just witness that your whole world, together with your dreams, had crushed upon your very eyes. It is hard, yes: harder than having Sue Sylvester gets to have a scoliosis for 30-so years.

Whenever I am alone by myself, thoughts are haunting me and they confront me with an excruciating suffering of whether I will stay this slowpoke for the rest of my life or not. Of course,I would want to be someone great. After all, that was my fuel way back those time when I was in the Ateneo. TO BE GREAT. Whatever form it will take, basta, I have to be great. Also, I dreamed of being a surgeon (as inspired by Meredith Grey) or a teacher in college having all these Ph.D's or any other affixes to my name. Yes, I was so determined that time to have as many achievements as I could and I was so competitive. But you see, those days are replaced (I would not say that they were gone. There is still hope. I know) by a cruel nightmare spanned its way for almost a year now. I lacked focus and I feel strength to continue with life was snatched away from me. I am not that enthusiastic with life now. I feel miserable and even I can't comprehend the gravity of grief that I am feeling now.

It is just I feel that I am lost from the chaotic history of life. Yes, I fucked up entirely but you know, there is always these thoughts that if ever I had a better family, i would be a better person right now. I know it is sooo foolish of me wanting for something that is irreplaceable but if you could just know how my father terrorize me emotionally, you would want to have a better father. How could he be so selfish? He is! Soooo selfish that he can't even help me overcome my sickness. He always looks at me with disgusts that I didn't know where it is coming from. He just hated me being myself and I can't even get his respect. Well, I am just going with the flow with this kind of father and as God as my witness, there will come a time when I am the one who will have the last hearty laugh over him. Thinking of him is enough to have my mind discombobulated and chaotic. I hate it when he can't even feel a sort of remorse and blame everything to me including the death of my tita who died because of a heart failure. He would not even take some responsibility over the craziness of his life and often tell me that we have problems of our own and we must deal with it by myself. WHATEVER HAPPENED TO THE CONCEPT OF FAMILY AS A FAMILY. They were the one who taught us to be selfish with our feelings!

Life is hard especially having my situation. I just wish to have something that will inspire me to do again. Just a little something to propel me forward!

Fucking up is the hardest thing to live with

The difference, I realized, between being alive and being dead is that sense of push that motivates you to continue further with life. That motivation propels you forward to do the things you like, to make things happen as you want them to happen, and most especially, to pursue what you are really passionate about--that is, your dreams. That sense of motivation is clearly what I am lacking now.

I was not a good person. I shit around so much in Ateneo: Totally enjoying the temporary freedom given to me away from the horrors of my home and simultaneously losing my own self of identity. I betrayed trusts and friendships and confused with the feeling of being alone. An irony it is, because I was the one who turned down the opportunities to reconcile. Yes, I shit so much....and I totally regret those shitting around. God knows how my conscience grinds my soul in remorse.

Right now, I just don't know. I just don't know what to do with this fucking life. My mother, fortunately, tries to bridge the gap between us and I, fortunately, had overcome the life-long communication barrier between us and I am totally grateful that she understands my position. She always ask me what my plans are, and the only reply that she is getting (as you would predict): I DON'T KNOW. And what I don't understand with this "I don't know" is that I used to be this dreamer who always want to soar and I did soar at some point in my life. I just don't understand why I am like this.

It is not easy for me, yes, living my life like this--without purpose. And some people around me thinks that I am just still playing with my life. I am not playing games now, I am being existential. Now that I am trying to reconnect with my father, siblings and other family relationships: They are making it harder for me. Mocking me. Honestly, when I am with my father, I always have this feeling that he mocks me, he disgusts me because I'm gay, and he thinks that I am now hopeless. It is really hurting me....excruciatingly, and he thinks I deserve to be in this ravine. He sometime says good things about me but I can feel the fakeness of those words. I can't see the ingenuity of him when he talks at me, I am feeling the mockery and malice.

Yes, I did fell a long long way down since and right now, I am totally wasted. I lack the motivation to go further and now losing hope in getting one because there are still people around me that denies me of having one. As much as I plead for their help to salvage me, they are just making it harder for me. Right now, I think I need help from my friends or even someone who could I talk to with and just burst out because these tears need to flow out of me. I am alone, I know, because of own doings, but right now....I need your help.

ഖി സിസ്-ജെ?

Qui suis-je? Je m’appelle Angelo Louise Jalandoni-Lopez. J’ai 15 ans et je suis né le 11 juin 1993 en l’Hôpital de l’Université de Saint-Thomas à Manille. Je suis un étudiant à l’Université de l’Ateneo de Manille et j’étudie les sciences de la vie. Je suis philippin et j’habite à Marikina. Depuis en étudiant mon cours, je vais prendre medicine être un médicin.

J’adore en sachant beaucoup choses. J’adore en lisant mes livres des les sciences et des les litteratures. Je très aime Harry Potter et Da Vinci Code. J’écris des essays, des poèmes et des histoires-petites aussi. Actualement, j’ai gagné une competition nationale pour le journalisme quand je fus en école secondaire.

Je n’adore pas en étudiant seulement; mais, je fais autres activités aussi. Je très adore danser de preference le ballet. J’ai été dansant le ballet en divers productions compris un rôle danseur en Tchaikovski’s Le Lac du Cygne. Je fais du théâtre et j’ai été en agissant pour plusieurs anée. Aussi, j’aime jouer à l’escrime (Je joue à l’escrime très bien!). J’ai gagné une compétition en l’escrime de le mois dernier. Je joue à la natation aussi mais je ne suis pas bien.

Je rêve d’aller en France ou voyager tout le monde. Je veux voir l’Éiffel et le Louvre (je veux voir le feu d’artifice et La Joconde). En future, je veux être un médicin aider les gens.

MES AMIS:

Connie

Connie est fille simple mais très intelligente. Elle a gagné une competition nationale pour les études scientifique. Elle a une etudes en le cancer recherche. C’est magnifique!

Jess

Jess est une fille douse et charmant. Elle est une bien amie!

Ances

Ances est une fille bruyante à qui voix est forte. Elle est une bien amie aussi!

Kenny

Kenny est une fille creative. Sa imagination est aux couleurs vives.

Elle écrit des poèmes et des essays très magnifiques!