I talked to this guy on the phone and his voice is so warm and caring. I met this guy in the internet and he is from North Carolina. And he is a very nice guy. They say that one can find love in the most impossible places. Could this be it? We'll see.

This is my coldest Christmas ever, well at least, literally.

It must have been around below 20 degrees outside and the air is crisp and chilly. Shivering seems more frequent to me now and I am wondering if this could lead to hypothermia. (knock on wood). Now I am wondering what if I go to those country where Christmas is not just like this cold. Colder. Ano kaya ang magiging itsura ko nun?!


Two days before Christmas, and I am thanking God that there is no wind. Baka kasi lalo pa akong ginawin? We have no aircon in the house but there is no need even for an electric fan right now. Every bare part of my body is like getting it's "fair"amount of cold. And feeling ko, magssnow na dito sa Pilipinas. Dream come true? I think I am not ready for that yet.

And as for having a cold Christmas on a metaphorical sense, well, I would say that this is my warmest Christmas ever. I never had a Christmas like this: planned. It is like having an actual family which I longed for. I only want this, happy family that I wished I have.

Yeah, that'sit fornow, I still have some gifts to wrap.

PS: I still need a boyfriend. lol

Yeah, I changed the design of this blog yet I am still pathetic because I know I suck in web designing. I don't know anything about that so please bear with me. I just resort to what is available here. I promise I'll learn some interesting things here in the blog.

Till the next post!

Gay Flicks made me Want a Boyfriend

This past few days, I was hooked (and still am hooked) with gay flicks. No, not porn.....I mean, those sensible gay movies that were featured on foreign gay film festivals. Of course there is some skin and hot guys and kissing and spooning, but whatever, these movies I have watched are those with a real story. These movies ruined my blogging schedule but I don't really care. At the very least, I could still feel all this kiligs  that I have imagining who my true love is and when shall I meet him.

These movies (Shelter, 2007; Latter Days, 2004), made me cry and feel an inexplicable sense of euphoria inside me. I really don't know if it is happiness because "kilig" is too plain for a word. The sexiness of the guys are just a plus but the acting is superb that the pairings are believable. I blame this movie for wanting some more coz I just can't seem to get enough with some gay romance. So there I was, scrumbling (I dunno if there is such a word) the internet to find online streaming of some sensible gay movie. (Note that i am looking for a MOVIE not for PORN).

After several hours of surfing and searching and most of the times frustrating myself to find copies, I came by the "supercouple" Luke Snyder and Noah Mayer (kilig again) of As The World Turns. This guys are so hot together, and lucky for me Van Hansis (the guy playing Luke, the blond guy) is gay. Their storyline is always almost over the top--because it is a soap-- but nonetheless their feelings are natural. Kilig again. What is great about this couple is that there is a certain LukeVanFan in YouTube that uploads EVERY scenes of their storyline ever since 2010!!!!! And thus, I am always spending my time watching them too and making kilig over the place. If you are interested  on watching Luke and Noah click the link above and enjoy. I highly recommend it for non-homophobe people.

So what if I'm gay. I still have the right to have a lovelife and I'm praying to give me a boyfriend right now. Yeah, that is my christmas wish: A BOYFRIEND. But I rather have some high standards because looks pay off and my guy should have some sensible brain to talk with. So if anyone who's reading this pass, please, message me and we will see. Lol.

(Almost) Amazing

"Be honest and unmerciful" says rock icon Lester Bangs (Patrick Seymour Hoffman) to William Miller (Patrick Fugit) in the movie Almost Famous (2000). To be honest, I am not the most honest person in my life but this movie struck me and I saw how honesty and passion are the perfect ingredients for living life.

To this date, I have never researched on a movie that I am writing about. I am only concerned of what  a movie says to me--more on a reflective stuff-- and I didn't care how the critics say, much more, rate a certain movie. However, this movie made me push for a little more so a hit on RottenTomatoes and read some movie reviews about Almost Famous. I found out that it got 88% rating in rotten tomatoes and got quite nice reviews from movie critics. I will not talk about them here because they get so technical there.

The movie features rock n' roll and I am the number one discriminatory person against those kind of music mostly because I just don't like that kind of music. Just plainly that-- no reason at all. Then suddenly came this movie (which I watched out of boredom) saying that music chooses the person and I was like, "Rock n' roll didn't choose me." The music that chose me is the music behind Little Mermaid, Lion King and Rent which made me look up to "La Vie Boheme" as the musical perfection. I found within me a personification of William's mother who's thinks that those kind of music is a bad influence. The movie made me realize I am in no position to judge a person with his choice of music as a basis after all, I am in no position to judge at all.

You see, I am not a kind of person you'll see jumping up and down and banging my head wildly in a crowd in front of a rock stage. I also disgust those people who almost line their eye at least a quarter of an inch thick and wearing their bangs all over their face and eventually slit their wrists. I am the kind of person listening to There's A Fine, Fine Line and Journey to the Past  and act out the emotion of the song through dancing and theatrical gestures (So my brother is frequently annoyed when I burst out singing a song amidst household chores). Almost Famous made me realize that as much as I think those people on a almost pandemonic rock concert are crazy, I am as much as a lunatic.

But the movie is more than musical discriminatory. It is also about growing up and having a perspective in life. We can see the total transformation of William from a misfit boy to a mature person who understands the realities of life and the existence of true love. Kate Hudson's character saw the difference between a die-hard fanatic infatuation to true love. Lester saw the values of friendship. And among other, each character makes the movie work through making subtle but strong impact to us audience.

This movie opened my eyes to the diversity of culture; more specifically, seeing as music as an extension of poetry and another portal for fillings. Music chooses people as a wand chooses the wizard. Great Movie, Must see!

PS
Sorry for making this post late. I am so hooked up with gay flicks and As The World Turns. I'll finish the two articles I'm lagging.